How Are You?

The last post is exactly one year ago. How are you all doing? As far as I could remember, the purpose of setting up this blog was to keep in touch with each other and record the things we do together. However, no new updates doesn't mean our relationship has fallen apart.

Though we are in the same phase of life, we are at three separate locations. We are all busy with our own lives. Perhaps we have not been meeting up much as we used to do, we are not even talking to each other much. Sometimes I feel like we are getting further and further away from each other, I have totally no idea of the daily activities you all are doing day in and day out. The reason might be there is no overlapping of our lives. We have different circle of friends, we have less topics in common.

But somehow all of you are in my mind. There are times, or more precisely seconds, your images tend to conjure up in my mind, flying in and flying out. This is the prove that I still keep you all in mind and our relationship hasn't change much? Praying and wishing you all do the best in your respective lives. 

Before I close, perhaps I shall tell what's happening in my life. Year 3 in JB is challenging. The gap between pre-clinical school and clinical school is big. It seems the clinical skills we learnt past two years are not applicable here. So I would see this year as a new start, again. Haha. I see every year as a new fresh year to ace. I hope this year will be great for all of us!

Really hope to see you all soon.

Happy New Year!

Argh, happy new year girls!

We didn't manage to go out together for the past holiday. Ouch. And I only managed to see Neri twice after waiting for so long!

I am on my second day of my second year now!

There is an exchange girl in my group, who is really attractive. Hahaha.

I thought this year I will not be the same as the last. However, when I breathe in the air in the lecture theatre and lab, the odour brings me back to the experience last year. It is depressing.

And I started to miss you all!

Hahahaha.

Alright, hope you are well. Neri will not be coming back this year end... Ah Jing will be so far away...

Three different timezones! Hey we should try making video calls, there will be cool-some!

It's 12:27am, should be my sleeping time, but I am visiting a few blogging sites, at the same time filling another page(s) of my journal...
Hey I feel like moving my web blog to Wordpress (I created one a year back but am still very unfamiliar with it's settings), cos my Blogger seems too messy for me, but I invested so much time setting up the Blogger... What to do?
Perhaps I should do a serious clean ups for my Blogger and restarting it again already, and not spending time being indecisive... So many things crossed my mind but I just let them slipped away, feeling such a waste of not recording them down at the right moments...
I really really want to control my privacy to a circle of friends whom I am close with, not liking the fact of being so naked in front of the public ever again...

But at the class of 32 students, I am still very lonely. I am quiet, as always. Nobody asks me out for meals, of course I die a little bit inside, but I am not feeling as worse as how I did. I am constantly telling myself that it is okay because I deserve to have preferences over who I want to be closed to, and that I do not have to force myself to fused into a culture where I am not suitable at all. Actually things are just that simple, just that I messed up my beginning and things just got so complicated. I am not so pathetically friendless, it is just that...  They are just different, from me, and of course you. All in all, I will be fine being alone, because by being so, I can entirely focused in my studies, having freedom of taking control over what I want to do at every minutes, and hang out during weekends with comfortable people to release stress accumulated during weekdays. Since the new semester began until now, I feel livelier and clearer of my objectives of being here, as compared to the past 1.5 years, so blurred of the what was the aim... Remember what you told me, Neri? That I am here for the sake of my future career.

I am so fortunate, to have you as two of my bunch of friends, who always backing me from behind, who I can laugh whole-heartedly with, even if I looked lost, you just finely go along with me. I may probably feel like an island if I turn 365º around at the point I stand, but if to see further, I am not lonely internationally, at all. Just because you are not physically right beside me, it doesn't mean that I am a sole soul. At this evil world full of showing offs, I am lucky that my backup is rich with all of you!

oh, I signed up for Yoga Club, and I am going to participate in my very first activity later this evening!!! So excited! I feel like I am reliving a bit by a bit again!

~Jing~

Hello my homies,

Sorry to be MIA for so long - but hope you both are doing well and pushing on with life.

And I'll be back on the 9th of december - mark that down in your calendar and may the countdown begin hehe.

Matt, best of luck with exams. It only gets harder from now on- having said that, I hope you've had the time of your life because I certainly did (despite some ups and downs, stresses and breakdowns) It is hard to know that this is definitely the path you want to go down, sometimes I doubt too but we all do. No one is 100% sure - okay maybe there is. But what I'm trying to say is that with every decision you make, somehow there is always a little doubt, but you've gotta just go for it and embrace it. It isn't easy doing this, but in the end, whether or not it's worth it - it depends on the effort you put in to make the most out of it. Fresher year is always the best, in my opinion- so while you're still there, savour the moment - once gone, it'll never come back.

Jing, best of luck with a new semester. Soon you'll be on a plane being halfway across the world and goddamnit, we'll have to deal with three different timezones. But haha that's okay - you deserve the experience of your lifetime too. For now, stay strong and don't let people walk over you. If there's anything - feel free to rant. I'm all ears haha. Can't wait to catch up with you guys again!


Guys, I cannot believe we're in the 20s (not me, but almost for me haha) - remember those days all we think about when we're 12 is that oh my god what would secondary school be like and when we are in sec school, we were like oh my god how cool were the graduating students. and now here we are. We graduated from primary school 8 years ago, and secondary school 3 years ago (2 years for me) and it is pretty scary how time flies. Soon we gotta take on more responsibility and that scares the fuck out of me. I used to anticipate growing up and now I kinda wish we could stay teens forever.

Anyways, best of luck with your undertakings guys, can't wait to see your lovely faces soon. much love, xo

Miss You Sisters!

How are you all doing?

Alright, this question should be directed to Neri because I just had a good time with Ah Jing 2 weeks ago. 

Busy preparing for you exams? Me too! I guess you have more stress than me! But I believe you can make it as usual.

When will you be back? Hope I can resume my count down this year. Hahaha.

Well, I am very excited to learn so much things about health and human body. However, they are too much to be inserted into my big head. I am eager to know more, but I have no time to finish! So I am having this contradiction everyday. I know I have a lot to cover, but often I am puzzled to know where to begin.

And Ah Jing! I have not forgotten you. Hahaha.

The video you posted made me emo. Haha. The memories flash back in my mind. People say good memories will make you happy, but why am I lamenting. Perhaps now I have greater stress and greater responsibility and greater dissatisfaction.

However this time when I watched the video again, I paid more attention to the person I never cared before. I realize there was only one personal shot for her, and most of the time she was not in the photos with other girls. I wonder where had she been. I couldn't help to trace back was there any single moment I was aware of her existence. She was too far from our circle. She was never in our group. I guess I never crossed her world too. How does she end up having so much of an impact?

Anyway, life moves on. I always refuse to give the credit to time for curing my wounds. But it did. Time will not stop flowing for anything. No events can ever stop time.  

I know we meant very much to you, you all meant very much to me too. But we need to make new friends outside, if not we cannot survive. Rest assured, you all and all the memories have a special space in my heart.

One more thing, I am upset when I see the faces in the video, thinking of broken friendship. I don't want to lose friendship any more.

Keep pressing on NJ!! We can do it!

All the best!!!!

Entertainment Time

There was a day

MNJ found a perfect photo shooting site

At the beginning, it was something like this:

Like this:

and also like this:

heavenly~

Somehow, it became......

 M really had no idea at the two girls...

Please laugh my friends

xD

REPLIES

Haha jing! Fret not- we'll meditate together and seek inner peace and be like the Dalai Lama! You're not missing out on much don't worry- it's not a difficult concept- anyone could do it so can we :)
Anyways I feel like sometimes stress can actually help with work efficiency- but we have to make sure we manage it well and don't let it take over and lose control. It is hard to juggle everything at once, and to live the balanced life but I suppose we learn with time and of course, many mistakes on the way.
It's okay though, because we would eventually get closer to the life we dream to live :)

I can't wait to travel too- hopefully it'll work out end of year. Definitely up for a roadtrip/short retreat! It'll be fun, SO MUCH FUN.

And matt, haha I know 9 semesters may sound so long to go but really as time passes and when the 9 becomes 7 or 5, you'll get closer to finishing and the excitement builds up. I suppose clinical years would be much more fun with more hands on experience and everything so hang on there, things will get better and much more fun :)

Have you had any placements yet? Tell me about it! Must be very exciting entering hospitals with another role, not just being the patient anymore!